Sunday, December 11, 2011

Forgetting

STUDY BREAK!!!!

I'm gonna tell you a little story.  Its about me and a guy (duh..what else do I talk about?)

I really liked this guy.  And I really thought he liked me.  But then he disappeared.  Quite literally into thin air.  And it messed me up a little bit...I won't lie.

People often forget about me like that.  So you would think I would be used to it or something.  But nope....not this time.  this time I was crushed.
I hoped beyond all hopes that I would see him sometime.  That we would run into each other on accident.  I made sure I always looked nice....just in case.  But it was all for nothing.

He had forgotten about me.  Forgotten what we had.

But the problem was....I didn't.  I remembered everything.  And my heart was just a little bit broken.  And it stayed broken...for longer than really was likely acceptable for the situation.

So why am I talking about this now.  Who the heck knows.  I guess it is just on my mind.  Forgetting I mean.

I'm trying to decide if it is a virtue or a vice...this remembering.  Obviously in this case...it was real to me.  So its good that I can't forget about it.  But then again.  I can't let go.  The fish is dead...not even flopping on the table anymore.  Its dead...dead dead dead.  (know....nasty image)  But I still sit there staring at it.  I should just flush it down the toilet right?  (ok seriously this metaphor is not only not particularly elegant...but also not very illustrative.  But I only have so long of a study break..so it will have to do.)


Anyway.  I can't forget.  I wish I was more like the people who can.  They are living their happy hum-drum lives in perfect ignorant bliss...and here I am lying awake at night...having trouble focusing.

So lets switch please....you need to not forget
And I need to.....
ok....so don't judge me....but this song really says it pretty well.  And yes it is Demi Lovato....and yes I am 23 years old...but deal with it.  I have to keep up with the young things....so I can relate to my patients....

5 comments:

  1. "Dead. Dead dead dead." Reminds me of Anastasia... ;)

    Also, if my status inspired this particular blog post, I'm sorry. =P Because it sounds like this wasn't particularly pleasant, this remembering.

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  2. The pain you're passing through is a positive thing. It sucks, but it's a hurtful symptoms of a good thing. Only those who can really be hurt can also truly love.

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  3. "I have to keep up with the young things....so I can relate to my patients...." sure Steph whatever you say hahahaha ;)

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  4. dont worry Tamara....yours is coming....I just want lots of time to organize my thoughts :)

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  5. I guess I'm one of the young things cause I really like this song... :)

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