Sorry...that is mean and cranky. But here is the thing.
The past 12 months have not been happy months for me.
One year ago today, I came out to Columbia.
And it has been hard!
School is hard and stressful. Adjusting to a new place and all the stresses that come with living on your own is not a whole lot of fun.
Don't get me wrong. I have had happy moments. I've had good times. And I have learned SO much! People here have touched me and changed me.
But those moments and those times are fleeting. They don't last.
I'm young. I'm single. I have a career that allows for a bit of flexibility as far as location is concerned.
If I had a husband or kids or something that kept me here, I would work it out. I would learn how to be happy here. I would embrace my life here.
If I was in a position to create a permanent life; I would be more than happy to!
But I don't have to. So why would I stay in a place where I don't see a happy future?
Why would I stay somewhere that I always can't wait to leave and dread coming back to? Why would I stay in a place associated with so many rotten memories? Why would I want to stay in a place where people are unkind?
Like I said--if I had to work it out...I would.
But I don't. So I'm leaving.
Sorry if that breaks your heart.
Honestly--it doesn't really break mine.
PS...sorry if this offends someone. I don't mean to. I just want to share my true honest feelings.
Stephanie--leave Columbia. Get out of here as soon as you can.
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