Dreams are weird. I've said this before.
This afternoon I took a nap.
And instead of waking up refreshed as I should have or groggy as I usually do....I woke up disturbed...and with a headache.
Not cool!
It was a very disturbing dream. A nightmare of sorts. Not the type of dream that leaves you scared. But the kind that leaves you upset-twisty insides upset.
The beginning of the dream was a version (nothing like the real thing in situation) of a terrible interaction that happened 5ish years ago. Then suddenly I was in a different season (summer to Christmas) at a fancy party with people from the ward (and Tim McGraw what the what!), in a place I don't recognize and was making choices that were not advisable.
In the dream I was upset because of the interaction and then stressed about the poor choices. And I woke up feeling the same-upset and stressed. Plus afternoon nap groggy-ness.
Basically it was no bueno.
I've written before about dreams and my theories on why dreams are sometimes so weird.
But there is one that I didn't touch on. One that this dream causes me to worry about.
Some people say dreams are the manifestations of our true desires. Our true selves.
The end of this dream I made some really bad decisions. Not just ill-advised-but bad bad choices.
Does this mean that I deep down want to make these choices? Is this my true self??
So I really want to know what you all think. Let me know! Cause I am freaking out just a little........
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Stephanie, I do not believe that dreams are your true subconscious desires. Not one ounce. You have no control over your dreams AND dreams are not real.
ReplyDeleteIn the Inception special features they talk about lucid dreaming - where you can control your dream. If that is indeed something legitimate then I feel you can sin in your dreams - no doubt about it.
But in a regular dream, one that is simply your bored brain... I honestly feel that there is no connection to your actual desires. If it were the case, my inner most desires are very strange indeed... And I know in my heart that my inner most desires are not what I experience in dreams.
Having said that, I know that feelings you experience in a dream can be real. Any regret or joy or pain you feel can be real. (not that your true self would honestly feel joy at doing something wrong... if that makes any sense at all) Basically, you can wake up feeling intense anguish and it is a real feeling.
I'm not sure if I am making any sense at all - I haven't slept well for a while (we spent the weekend at my parents') - but basically I'm trying to say that you are not a bad person and your inner most desire is not to do bad things - you wouldn't be so terrified if that were the case.
I'll shut up now.
The only time I've ever heard that-- that the actions/thoughts you have during a certain period of time are reflections of your desires-- was in reference to being drunk, not dreaming. Lol. I think you're fine, Lizzy. I've had some ridiculous dreams lately, but I blame that on being sick. And even though I think dreams tend to include people or things we think about a lot during the day (hence the many dreams recently of a certain individual who will remain anonymous... hehe), they don't necessarily reflect our desires.
ReplyDeleteSometimes I wonder if dreams are our brains dealing with stress. The last month with all of the stuff at work etc...the dreams that I do have, have been random and weird---not as weird as yours is sounding...but still I wake up feeling freaked out or scared etc. I have always said that I wish my brain would just shut off-mostly so I can sleep...so I wonder if dreams are our brains way of shutting off sometimes...taking a hike and letting itself wander...even into strange never would do land
ReplyDeleteI also wonder too if our brains plan out scenerios like a book for us to experience but not really experience...like if you got your belly button pierced in a dream just to see what it was like...but then there's what Jessi said so I don't know...I'll stop rambling...