My Thoughts on Today...V-Day

Truth time!  I hate this day!
And it is not because I am single.  I have lots of love in my life and don't have much to complain about in that respect :)
So stop thinking that I am a bitter pathetic girl who throws Anti-Valentines Day parties

(PS this was not a particularly wonderful movie in case you were considering it..kinda dull)

As I told my dad the other day....I can't move to [insert place name here]...because I am not bitter and pathetic and old enough (yet..not all a the same time yet).  I'm not ready to totally "give up" just yet.
Although I was told the other day that if I get to 24 and am still single I should throw myself off a cliff.  (interesting solution) So perhaps my situation is more dire than I realize ;)

I have always hated this day (and by always I mean ever since we stopped having parties at school and I stopped giving out princess valentines).
And I will likely ALWAYS hate this day.
Its dumb...so lets be honest about it.

Do we need a day that we tell everyone we love that we love them?
Shouldn't we be doing that everyday?

Where are the people who insist we make every day Christmas day????
Why aren't they talking about Valentines Day?

We should be telling people we love them EVERY DAY!!!
Lets make EVERYDAY Valentines Day!!!
Tell them ALL THE TIME!!!
And not with flowers and candy.

And while we are on the subject, may I ask why society picked flowers and candy?
I mean I love flowers (particularly from a guy flowers) and candy (especially of the chocolate variety) as much as the next girl.
But flowers die
And candy makes you sick/get cavities/get fat/develop diabetes.

So what does that say about love????? ;)
I'm just saying     hahaha


But despite my fundamental issue with this silly holiday, I guess I will take advantage of it.

I tell my "close people" that I care all the time.  But in case I haven't told you in a while.  I do :)
I love you for being the bright moments in my life.
Friends and family...near and far.  You make every day a little easier and a little more happy!

But you know who I don't tell I love them enough.  You guys.  My readers.  Sorry for the sappy moment there...kinda cheesy ICK!

But I really do appreciate you guys.  You make my day when you comment and "react".  I throw a tiny party every time I get a new follower.  And my day is instantly magical when I see super high stats.

So thank you guys!  And Happy Valentines Day!!!!!!!!



want to hear my favorite love song right now????
I think I like it cause its cute and sweet...but to me...its not that cheesy. Just fun :)

Enjoy! AND HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A Single Rose

And through it....an explanation of the Theory of the Rocket Ship.

I have alluded to this before.  But here is the WHOLE sch-peel

Its a simple principle of physics or whatever.
You put a whole lot of rocket fuel in a rocket and make it burn crazy fast...you are gonna get some SERIOUS lift off.  Like MAJORLY
But guess what.  Eventually...its gonna burn out.  And then you will stall.  Leading to eventual crash and burn.




You guys have all heard me moan and groan about Farm Boy
(I do apologize for my whiny-ness regarding this matter)
But I am going to bring it up again.  As a perfect example.

We (according to an outside observer) had crazy sparks going from the FIRST moment we met.  I really like him right from the beginning.  He was really attracted to me from the very beginning.  And so it EXPLODED. We took off...and eventually ran out of fuel.
It was fast and furious.  Practically over before it started.
I crashed and burned....NO FUN!!!

Dear Gentleman Callers everywhere
If you would like to woo me.  You are going to have to take it slow!!!  Like GLACIERLY slow.  I've crashed and burned.  And it has hurt.  So I am not keen to going super fast.
Don't call every day.  Don't be pushy.  Don't be too much too fast.
K???

I feel like I am on the Bachelor....

Stephanie will you accept this rose?

UMMM.....No???  yeah...no...sorry

My New Ringtone....

.....and what it actually means.

(Its actually just the 2nd chorus...but close enough!)

Many of you were super sweet and encouraging last week when I told you a story about a choice I was trying to make.  The safe choice...or the more risky choice.

You all told me to take the risk.
And I assume
(of course I suppose one should never assume...assuming can lead to problems...but I digress!) that you meant I should take a risk and allow Mickey back in my life.

WELL......

Interestingly enough...I tricked you a little bit.
Not a LOT....just a little!
Let me explain before you get too ants in your pants!

The safe choice is actually to allow Mickey back into my life.  He's the safe one.  Much less risky then allowing myself to be open to what could happen to me otherwise.

But is the safe choice always the wrong choice?  I've thought about it all week.  And honestly, I am happy and comfortable with my choice.

The ring is switching hands...so to speak ;)

OK....so I am a crazy person

I started playing on Pinterest.

So not a good thing!

Luckily...it provided a GREAT break during my day of NCLEX studying.
one chapter of studying...15 minutes on Pinterest!

Its of course going to take a while to get all set and fun....but eventually!

:D

TST or FTF??

Is it a Theme Song Thursday post a day late?
Or it is a Favorite Things Friday post???

who cares.....this is what it is...An awesome song I am rocking out to RIGHT NOW....and NOW...and NOW
 Yes I rocked out to it while at work on my computer.
Yes I rocked out to it while I walked home
And yes I also rocked out to it while getting ready for my night out.
My excitement level needed a little push...Thanks for the upper! ;)

Dear Boys---A General Letter

Dear Boys All Over the World

I think you guys are great.  You give me hugs when I need them.  You make me laugh.  You provide me with listening ears...and shoulders to cry on.  You notice I look nice when I tried really to look good.  You give me good advice. You lift heavy things for me.  You reach the stuff on the high shelf.

And because of all these things....I feel the need to share some things with you.

First--When asking a girl out on a date...Facebook and/or texting is not a classy way to do it.

Second--When asking a girl on a date...make it clear it is a date.  There are some key words I would like to suggest..."date", "take you out", "go with me"

Third--Be careful about how hard core you are before things get serious.  Give her a little bit of space.  Not lots...don't disappear.  But don't be a bother either.

Fourth--Don't send  mixed signals.  Don't flirt your face off...and then disappear.  It creates confusion.

Fifth--Pick a gear and stay in it!  There is no problem with changing your mind...you are totally free to do that.  Just try your best to not express your undying love and serious intentions for a girl...and then move on to someone else.  Again...confusion

Just some suggestions.  You can take it or choose to ignore it!

Love
Me



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The Thoughts of a Friend

The following was written by someone very close to me.  She would only agree to write it if I kept her anonymous

So there are these things called the 10 Commandments right?  I break one of them all the time.  Thou shalt not covet.  Whoops!  Steph always complains about her bad luck with guys.  I'm right there with her.  The amount of old group pictures I have that feature me as the only remaining single person.  Not much fun at all!

Musical Mondays---Today's Girl Power Playlist

Last night I was told that Feminism is terrible to the point of sinful!
This gentlemen of course tried to redeem himself by saying that women should be held even higher then men.

Also apparently women should be MORE celebrated when they are in the home caring for their family.
Ever met this women?

Her name is Barbara Thompson and after my mom..she is my hero.  She is in the General Relief Society presidency.  And she is SUPER SUPER funny.  And amazing.  And.....SINGLE!
She has not had an opportunity to have a husband or children.  Should she be celebrated less?  She has made a great impact on the people in her life and in her sphere of influence.

We as women have MANY talents.  Those include our talents in homemaking AS WELL AS in general society.  And we should be celebrated for EVERYTHING that we do..equally.

Also since I am ranting.  My brand of righteous feminism is NOT guy bashing.
I mean I get annoyed with the guys as much as the next girl.  And I jokingly assume a confusing or poorly planned/organized building/activity/situation was the product of a MAN.

But lets be honest.  When you are having a really bad day...who do you want a hug from?  Who do you call when you need a blessing?  Yeah they drive us crazy.  But we can't really do it without them.
Do you really want to live in a world where we have to pay for dates????
Or one where, though we can do it just fine, we have to carry our own shoe-filled boxes when we move???


So in summary......Equal does not mean the same....but it does mean EQUAL.

so in honor of this rant....here is a playlist for your enjoyment!

Can I Tell You a Story?

Its a good one!  One that always made me happy.  So snuggle up.  Grab some hot choc and get ready.

This is the story of a prince and a princess...It starts with "Once upon a time"...and ends with "And they all lived happily ever after".


NOT!!!  Seriously?  real life stories aren't like that.  But snuggle up anyway.  Its still a decent story :)


Rewind to my freshman year at BYU.   I was a young and naive co-ed...drunk on my new-found power to stay up (and out) late...and do what I wanted without worrying about the parentals.

Around October ish...I met Mickey.  (Actually I'll be totally honest I totally remember....its not an ish.  It was October 11th)  He was a stellar guy.  Made me laugh and smile.  And gave me just the right amount of drama to satisfy my 19 year old need.

He was kind and sweet...he fit everything that was on the list...which at the time was preventatively LONG!
There were many good times.  And DOZENS of memories.
We shared a deep love for music, and an interest in Poli-Sci. A mild obsession with Psych.  And of course, an appreciation for sports.

Our relationship was another one of those rocket ship ones.  Fast to start...but eventually stalls out.  There just wasn't enough there for a true lasting relationship.  Yes we had made plans.  But it was just too much.  Outside influences came in and set us straight a bit.  And so we parted ways...amicably of course

I met Knight in Shining Armor, Cheerio Boy, The Singer, The Ball Player, CD Maker, Missionary, Taylor Swift Boy, Handsy, Beautiful Blue Eyes, Enigma, Chicken Boy, Boy Next Door, Clark Kent, Farm Boy........all ending in nothing or disaster :)
He met plenty of girls I am sure.  Though I guess I can't really say.
I finished my degree.  He finished his and started a second.
He moved off to law school.  Then I moved off to nursing school.  I grew up.  And he got all his ducks in a row.

But throughout all that debacle...Mickey never really left.  He became the guy I compared all the rest to.  He was the ideal...the bench mark.

Now why am I telling you this story?
Cause Mickey's back.  Like really back...not just in the back of my mind.

So here is the true question.  The purpose of my ramblings.
Do I go with the safe thing??  Or do I take the risk??

Lessons Learned in Oz...and P-Town

Its probably no surprise to any of my readers that I LOVE the musical Wicked.  I love every bit of it...particularly the lessons it teaches.  But today I discovered one I hadn't really thought about before.

Elphaba and Glinda love each other...the best of friends.

But they hit a crossroads.

They have to decide which direction to go...
and if this choice will split them apart.
They don't want to be separated.
And they do all they can to prevent the parting.
But its not meant to be.
Sometimes life simply pulls us in opposite directions.

But they are understanding.
They wish each other complete happiness.
No matter what happens.


A few months ago, life pulled me in the opposite direction of the people I loved. The people who loved me.
I didn't want to leave.... and they didn't want me to go.
But I had to.
So they wrapped me up in a cloak and told me they wished me total happiness.
They knew I had to close my eyes and leap.
And ever since, they have continued to wish me bliss and success.

As I go through the ups and downs of nursing school, it is not the people I have recently surrounded myself with who are buoying me up.  The people who watch my day to day struggles aren't the ones being supportive.  They mean well.  But they just aren't my Glindas.  They haven't walked with me through the streets of the Emerald City and the halls of Shiz University.  Its the old friends....

I am defying gravity that is for sure...Flying high defying gravity.
But its only because I have the best most supportive friends lifting me up.
So thank you guys....you are the BEST! 

And if someday I am able to be half as good a friend as you...I will consider my time in this life worthwhile.

Favorite Things Friday

The way my hair feels after I have deep conditioned it.  Serious softness going on!

Getting to dress up for my Community Health stuff...I like the extremes...trousers/oxford/heels one day scrubs/tennies/ponytail the next....perfect!

My really great boss who lets me work a crazy unplanned schedule

The extra time I have had this semester to read and crochet...LOVE

The awesome sandwiches I have been making for lunch this week...red onions, pickles, tomatoes, lettuce, cheddar cheese, your choice of ham, turkey or maybe even both....makes a good sandwich into a GREAT sandwich

The weather lately.  This time last year...snow-pocalyse...yesterday....62 degrees!

The beat of Smooth Criminal...tap your fingers to it...ROCKIN!

The milkshakes I have been making all week.  I'm gonna gain some serious weight...THANKS blender!

Goodish news from doctors

Theme Song Thursday: Photograph

I've been trying so hard waiting for something
got your picture beside my bed
When I look in your eyes I can see a reflection
of the words that we left unsaid

And I was yours at the perfect time
But I just had to leave
Looking back endless memories in a photograph
come back wishing for another day with you

I didn't see this coming thought that we were fine
now I know I'm wrong
But the hardest part is that goodbye is forever
and how you're moving on

And I was yours at the perfect time But I just had to leave

Looking back endless memories in a photograph
come back wishing for another day

Holding hands in June makes me think of you
and the way we danced under the summer moon

When you laid me down I softly hit the ground
I smile with the night that's where it all felt right.
All felt right....

Looking back endless memories in a photograph
come back wishing for another day

This song has gotten me thinking today.  I've been going through photos, trying to find good ones to send to my brother on his mission.
And I keep running into pictures that remind me....
remind me of them.

Its crazy the amount of memories in one picture.  Just a glance brings me back....to days and nights in the park, walks late at night, water balloon fights, softball games, Sunday night dinners...and talks, midnight trips to Denny's, frozen yogurt, cabin trips, Vegas trips, long phone conversations, Skype, getting lost, butterflies.

I'm sad I had to leave. 
I'm sad you had to leave. 
Sad you all are moving on.

But thank goodness for the memories.
Of course I wish I had one more day.
But at least I got the ones I did.
And the photos to prove it.

Dear Boys...2 Weeks in a Row!

I have things to say...to boys...so dear boys...listen if if you choose :)

Dear Hoops
I was wrong!  You rock!
You are gonna keep me sane for the next few months.
And yes...this is you ;)
Love
A Grateful Me

Dear Enigma
I didn't want to tell you congrats.
You were supposed to marry me not her.
But you are so happy.  And that makes me happy.
Love
Its Bittersweet

Dear Buddy
hmmmmm not sure how I feel about this one.
Don't get the wrong idea...just because I let you in a little
doesn't mean things are going to go farther than that.
I just really like you being around.
I'm going to have to watch myself...cause I don't want to be that girl
The girl that leads guys on
Love
A Girl in Need...but not interested

Dear AP
You smell nice???
That wouldn't surprise me..AT ALL!  YUM YUM ;)
Can't wait to see what happens in February.....
fingers crossed you got my subtle hints!
Love
Moderately and Disturbingly Obsessed  (YIKES!)

Dear Mickey Mouse
I am not sure if I should let you back in my life.
Maybe its crazy (scratch that it is crazy).
But its safe.  And I need safe.
Love
Minnie

Dear Enrique
You like this song??  So do I!

Va a ser mi héroe?  Also a more pressing question....
Can I wear heels and still be shorter than you???
Love
chica interesada


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