Since Its Sunday...Brought to You By Mindy Gledhill

Alright Peeps.....

I know what you are thinking..."Will you STOP talking about this lady's music!!"
DEAL WITH IT!!!!!
You don't have to read this blog....wait don't stop reading...PLEASE DONT STOP READING!!!!


BUT anyway....

I have LITERALLY worn a hole in this CD.

(Yes I listen to the CD version...my car is from 2002.....)


I have my favorites of course and I listen to them almost exclusively.  Which means that frankly there are several songs I hardly ever listen to...and certainly don't pay attention to!


But today this one came up...AND SO PERFECT!!!!



Sundays can be exhausting...emotionally and physically.

It usually ends up being a long day of church meetings and helping people.

All good things.  But draining.


And so when I finally left the church building today (got there at 11...left at 6:30) this song came on.
AND OH MY GOSH....It spoke to me and brought the tears to my eyes.


Enjoy!

MOVIE MONDAY Careful...I've Cried like MULTIPLE times with this one!

Alright ladies and gents.  This is a beautiful and inspiring. 

Those are the only words I can think of!

Hard to keep my eyes dry for this one.

The children and the staff are so strong despite the difficult things they face.

I love it!!!!
And now you all get a glimpse of why of love pediatrics!!!!!!!


Keep Smilin'
Be Happy Be Healthy!!!!!

The Bang Debate

Do We Like or Do We Dislike.



For realzees people the debate is ongoing.  Even a month and a trim later.

So lets be real about this.
Initiate Pro/Con List


Pros

Cute look
Different look
Makes it so I don't really have to do my eye-makeup


Cons

ITCHY forehead (oh my gosh)
I've already had to trim, and another is likely just around the corner
The UPKEEP...gotta shower, gotta blow dry.  UGH



Unfortunately.....the pros/cons balance out

So I have no idea what to do!!!
Grow them out...keep them for a while?


VOTE...my hair fate is in your hands!!!!

Because I'm a Nurse

1. I'm addicted to smarties.  Some people drink coffee.  I eat smarties.

2. Every time I meet someone new/shake someone's hand I turn it just a little bit to see how their veins look.  Its worse if you date me cause then I can look at your whole arm with out it being tooooo weird.

3. I eat at 2 AM almost nightly.  Nights on and Nights off work...always get munchy at 2 AM.  And yes I have left my bed for a midnight kitchen raid.

4. Nailing/blowing an IV both makes and RUINS my day

5. I diagnosis myself constantly...I am a self proclaimed hypochondriac

6. I'm a crazy germaphobe.  Like for REALS.  We have these purple wipe things...death wipes I call them.  I do a thorough wipe down at the beginning and end...and sometimes the middle of EVERY shift!

7. Every 3 months I go around with the "Booty Patrol" and examine the backsides of EVERY patient in the hospital.  In the space of roughly 5 hours I usually see...hmmm I'd say at least 75 butts!

8. Very few sights and smells gross me out anymore...unless they are fake. The fake stuff is always worse than the real stuff.  Weird I know!

9. I can identify and locate any beeping on the floor...oral thermometer dying, IV occluded vs complete vs dying, chair and bed alarms, monitor red and yellow alarms, dinamaps dying

10. Some nights are crazy and some nights I feel like a failure...but more often than not...I am able to leave my shift feeling like I might have actually made a difference.


Thanks Anna and Paige for running this one!


Keep Smilin Everybody
Be Happy Be Healthy

SARA B...My Personal Life Coach

Like for REALS this woman ABSOLUTELY rocks my world.

Honestly has she ever written a song that didn't speak to me.

I LOVE my religion.  I feel very strongly that there is no place better to find advice than the scriptures...and the words of trusted leaders of my church.

HOWEVER....
Sara Barellies is a close second.


A little bit ago I got to see her live. And it was incredible.  Life altering and amazing etc.

And I could give you a play by play or put up tons of videos and pictures.  But lets just do this.....

Does anybody know how to hold my heart?

Cause I've had my fair share of take care and goodbyes

I've learned how to cry

And I'm better for that

You can't waste the day wishing it'd slow down

There's too many things that I haven't done yet

Too many sunsets I haven't seen

I hate to break it to you, babe 

But I'm not drowning 

There's no one here to save

All my life I've tried

To make everybody happy while I just hurt And hide

Waitin' for someone to tell me it's my turn to decide.

I'm already out of foolproof ideas, so don't ask me how

To get started, it's all uncharted...

Jump start my kaleidoscope heart, 

Love to watch the colors fade,

They may not make sense, 

But they sure as hell made me.

Compare where you are to where you want to be, and you'll get nowhere

I won't go as a passenger, no

I'm taking flame over burning out 

I want to be enough

I want to let the rain come down

Make a brand new ground

I wish I were pretty. I wish I were brave

And if I were fearless Then I'd speak my truth

And I always felt it before

That the world was filled with much more

Than the drowning soul I've learned to be

I just need the rain to remind me

Well, no more, It's not me anymore

You can be amazing You can turn a phrase into a weapon or a drug

You can be the outcast Or be the backlash of somebody’s lack of love

Or you can start speaking up

Nothing’s gonna hurt you the way that words do When they settle ‘neath your skin

Kept on the inside and no sunlight Sometimes a shadow wins

But I wonder what would happen if you

Say what you wanna say And let the words fall out

Honestly I wanna see you be brave

Everybody’s been there, Everybody’s been stared down by the enemy

Fallen for the fear And done some disappearing,

Bow down to the mighty

Don’t run, stop holding your tongue

Maybe there’s a way out of the cage where you live

Maybe one of these days you can let the light in

Show me how big your brave is

AND FINALLY...

BEST SONG EVER WRITTEN!!!!!

You said, remember that life is not meant to be wasted

We can always be chasing the sun!

My earth is somebody's ceiling,

There's a history through us

Sent to us as a gift from the future, to show us the proof

More than that, it's to dare us to move

And to open our eyes and to learn from the sky

All we can do is try

And live like we're still alive

Keep Smilin' Y'all

Be Happy Be Healthy

You Can Have St Louis

Cause I can't have you.


Its time for me to leave.  To depart my beloved town.

Sara B wrote this song about moving and breaking up and all that...
so basically she wrote it about me (not her and her own personal experiences of course)


I haven't told many people.  I guess I just want to tip toe away.

Maybe it cowardly.  Maybe its mean.
But its really hard to leave.
And I just don't want to do goodbyes.

Shall We Catch Up???

Got some hot cocoa?  (or coffee or tea or whatever you you drink)
Its a beautiful fall day.  The leaves are turning and there is a crispness in the air.
We just need a light jacket and there are great deck in the back and a porch in the front...take your pick.
(but this shot is the back...so I suggest the deck)

Lets sit...lets chat.

What have you been up to?

Yeah?

No way!!!!!

That is too bad.

That is the greatest!  Way to go!



Oh me?


Well lets do the quick overview yes?
By category and here we go.

Church:
Still going to the singles branch.  All sorts of fun craziness.
Still working in public affairs and greatly enjoying creating a positive image of Mormon YSAs.

Work:
Still working on an adult cardiac unit.
Lots of changes (don't get me started on the new healthcare laws and how they effect me nightly)
As with most change its been a little painful....
But luckily I have INCREDIBLE co-workers who make it easy to smile even when things are rough

School:
YEAH I'm not going!!!  At least not yet...
And probably won't for another little while.

Social:
Oh gosh we don't have time for that.
It's busy.  I have some wonderful beautiful friends who make it so much easier to deal with the crazy.
We stay out too late.  We talk and laugh and always have each other's backs.  Oh I love them!



Its an interesting life.  And that is the long and short of it.


Keep Smilin' Y'all

Be Happy Be Healthy!

Hi Strangers

Oh my goodness blogosphere!

I am sorry I have been absent for so long.

Its a VERY VERY long story that perhaps someday I will tell.

Its a story full of tears and smiles.  A story rich with the pain of rejection, disappointment and discouragement.  But also has sparkling moments of joy, excitement and contentment.

(ok so its not really that dramatic...I just like playing with the words)

But for now lets keep it short and sweet and just say I'm back and this time I'm back to stay!!!

I'll do a little catch-up/back-blogging...but mostly we are just going to start from the here and now.


I hope I haven't lost too many of you to boredom!!!

Stay awhile and lets catch up yes?????



Keep Smilin' Y'all!

Be Happy Be Healthy!


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What Nurses Think About Medical TV Shows

September LINK UP!!!!!

Yeah for nursing bloggy link-ups!

I adore Anna from "The Days When I'm Not a Nurse"
Frankly I adore all nurses...because they get it.
We live a hard life.  Night Shifts..12 Hour Shifts...Poo Pee and Uh Oh What Exactly is That On My Pants

But I love how Anna makes the most of her days off.
I need to be better about that!

And so...on the days when I am not a nurse....
I usually catch up on my TV shows.
And YES..I am embarrassed to say...I'm a Grey's Junkie.

But ever since nursing school I have resented the show.
And here is why.

1. Really NO hospital in SEATTLE has EVER or will EVER be in a flood...a tropical storm...a boat crash...a shooting...and all the rest of the junk they have had in...what 9 years?  I mean REALLY????????

2. Seriously how do all the most ridiculous crazy unheard of cases all end up in the same hospital?

3. Since when do surgical interns...and residents...and attendings cover all sorts of patients? Where are the internalists...and the hospitalists????

4.YOU DON'T SHOCK ASYSTOLE!!!!!!
Also...V-Fib looks like..

NOT...

(PS...dont shock this one..you'll kill em!)

5. Why does it seem like the nurses in this show are only good as Sloan's booty girls??  We don't have time to hook up with doctors...we are too busy trying to actually SAVE LIVES

But despite it all....I STILL WATCH IT!!!!

It was rough for a couple of seasons..but its gotten good again.  SHOOT  I was so going to drop this one...guess not!

Also..best moment of nursing school??

When one of my classmates answered a complicated question making our professor VERY proud.

This same classmate then leaned over and said "Learned that from House"

check out Anna and all the other link ups!!!!!!

Be Happy Be Healthy!

dear girls?????

OK so I totally have things to say to the girls too!

So alas...a dear girls!  A mix of the lovely...and the slightly less.  Hey-nobody is perfect!

dear mean girls
really???  we are going to do this?
we are going to be unkind and petty?
we are going to be hypocritical and down right ridiculous
COME ON!!!!
love
the girls you seem to hate


dear hurt ones
the phrase "you would be surprised what skeletons are in their closets"
is not true for me.
i'm not surprised at all.  hurt people hurt other people.
i am sad for you and for the difficult lives you must lead.
but rise above.  there is never a good excuse to cause another pain
love
best friend of the one you hurt


dear wounded friend
you are truly incredible!  you keep going even when you have every reason to be spiteful.
you really impressed me with how you handled the whole thing.
you rose above and i'm proud to be able to call you friend.
love
me
ps...if you want to punch em...ive got your back


dear meredith
you can do this!  we both know you can!
i love you
love
christina


dear teacher
don't forget to take care of yourself.
you want to be perfect and i commend you for that.
but remember to cut yourself some slack every so often,
cause though you are close...you aren't there yet.
love
an always worrying friend


dear gals at work
thank you for making it so i can handle this mess just a little bit better.
even though its a chore sometimes...work is always better when you are on too
love
a temporarily burned out nurse


dear wives
yes...it is high school.  no...i don't have faith that it will be fixed, cause i thought it was and it broke again.
no...i don't know what to tell you to do.
love
member who wants to run


dear biggest enemy at this time
you expect me to work harder for you and be happier after that?
yeah-not gonna happen!
sorry charlie...but i'm OUT!
love
yeah.......


dear girls on the back row
i'm sure you feel like outsiders sometimes...and i hope i never am the cause of it.
you are truly great people...and i hope you aren't hiding back there.
i'm all about being ON the back row.  just don't BE the back row.
you are too cool for that.
love
a middle row sitter

dear....cold ones?
i think you were never hugged as a child.  thats the problem.
be prepared to be loved excessively.
i'm going to try and make up for it!
love
girl who is gonna kill you with kindness---watch out!

Anyway everyone.

Be Happy and Be Healthy

And most of all..... Be kind to each other!

dear boys

Its been a while...shall we?????



dear good distraction
YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH!!!
she needs this.  some excitement...something to look forward to.
also she needs someone to distract...her and someone else.
love
best friend

dear dear pighead
yes.  i did just call you that.
do you really think you can treat people like that and expect things to go your way for long.
you are burning bridges and losing friends and respect.
try winning them and influencing them a little better.
love
dale carnegie

dear disappointment
i expected more from you.
get it together!
be kind be reasonable and
STOP THINKING ABOUT ONLY YOURSELF!!!!
guess what there are other people around you and you are...in fact...supposed to be concerned about them.
love
a sister

dear boyfriend
you are nice.
i will keep you around
love
girlfriend

dear new boys
be careful not to get exclusive.  im glad you found each other but
its not what we need right now
love
a concerned oldie

dear antsy
take some deep breaths and stop being antsy.
seriously!  you are going to make it even worse!
love
advice giver


Be Happy Be Healthy everyone!!!!!!!!

Its Been a Year!

One year ago today I began working as a nurse...a real big girl fully licensed registered nurse.


It has been a CRAZY year.

Full of amazing patients who have helped me realize why I became a nurse in the first place.
They have made me laugh...they have made be cry.

And occasionally they have irritated me...frustrated me..and stumped me completely!



I have in the past year felt completely stupid.  I have learned that more often than not I know absolutely NOTHING.

There have been moments...few and far between...when I have felt like a real nurse.  I have felt like I actually knew what I was doing.

And so I have hope that someday I might get to the point where I can be like one of those nurses I aspire to be.


It wasn't the perfect job...it wasn't pediatrics.  But it was cardiac.
And it has been a perfect first job.
I have learned sooooo much and had SOOOOOO many experiences.


One year of nursing down...now at least 19 more to go!!!!!!

Something Beautiful Happened Today

So our congregation (Singles) shares our church building with two other congregations.

Today while we were having our large combined worship service (Sacrament Meeting) the young children were meeting in the adjoining room.

During a particularly quiet and contemplative moment of the meeting when we partake of the sacrament (similar to communion) the childrens choir suddenly began to sing.  

And suddenly my eyes were welling up with tears....

This a very frequently sung song in Mormon world.  Like all the time.

And its always a nice song but sometimes its just a little cliche and seems overdone.

But today was different.

I don't know if it was the place my mind was in, the fact that it was children singing, or maybe it was just the words.

Well honestly it was probably all three combined.....

Heavenly Father, are you really there?

And do you hear and answer ev'ry child's prayer?

Some say that heaven is far away,

But I feel it close around me as I pray.

Pray, he is there;

Speak, he is list'ning.

You are his child;

His love now surrounds you.

He hears your prayer

Why I Stay