Honest, bare bones.
In real life-reality-I think through what I say. I process my emotions, and act appropriately.
Here....hahahahahahahahaha...it all hangs out here!
Its the x-rated version of my mind/emotions hahahahahahahahahahaha
So naked moment?
From a little bit ago....I just need to get it out.
They say she looks happy...she seems happy.
Score one for her..cause she is faking it good!!!!
Cause she is pretending like she's ok with it...
like there's nothing wrong.
When they ask...she tells them they grew apart...moved on.
That she doesn't care, that she is fine.
She pretends to not see their stares...sizing her up.
Trying to determine how she feels.
How what the news they just delivered has effected her.
She pretends to not hear the thoughts in their minds, shown so clearly on their faces.
When she sees them together..she closes her eyes,
praying for it to end soon.
Trying to swallow her pride and bite her tongue.
Who would have thought it would be this hard.
She never imagined...
who would have thought it would make her cry.
its not the best quality...but I like the rawness of this version best
Too bad I couldn't fix it. Too bad I couldn't make it better.
All I could do was watch as the tears flowed down her face, her mascara running,
mixing with the flush of her cheeks and nose.
All I could do was grab the tissues, which gradually went from their place, neatly folded and clean in the box, to a soggy, crumpled pile by her side.
All she could do was sob and occasionally mutter..."I'm such a mess"
No idea what she did wrong. No idea why things happened the way they did.
But no matter what. Nothing was going to change it.
There was nothing anyone could do.
No one could put back together the shattered pieces.
No one but her.
And only time would do that.
And even with time....the cracks still are there.
But she hides them well. Cause no one can really tell.
Good job honey.
I know its hard to hide. Its hard to
