Movie Monday Update

Its a Very Sleepless in Seattle Moment

Remember the line???
"You don't want to be in love in real life.  You wanna be in love in a movie"


Ok...be prepared for a slightly girly moment.  A slightly silly moment.
But hey...isn't that what this blog is all about???

I wanna be in love!
I want to have those crazy romantic moments that are the bread and butter of my favorite rom-coms

I want a guy to say he wants to marry me just so he can kiss me anytime he wants
I want a guy to write me a song
I want a guy to chase me around Ireland
Or make me a telescope
Dance with me in the middle of the street
Write me letters from a far away land
Run around a city looking for me
To grab me and kiss the crap out of me
Save me from some dangerous event
Kiss me in the rain
Build me a garden on my rooftop
Fly across the world, quit their job just to be with me
Teach me to do something new and find me so cute when I totally mess it up
Have fireworks and fountains go off at just the most opportune moment
Run through heavy traffic...in a thunderstorm
Be distraught when I don't call and then show up to give me a pen
Meet me at the top of the Empire State Building


But COME ON!!!!  That DOESN'T happen!!!

I know we all want it to.  And wouldn't it be nice if it did?

But lets be realistic ladies and germs.

They are movies for a reason....because they don't happen in real life.

And I'm almost glad for that.  Cause if a guy told me he was bewitched by me body and soul...I don't think I would be amused.  I think I would be moderately FREAKED!

So lets will leave the cheesy romanticness to the movies..where it somehow seems less cheesy.

And I will just pine away...wishing I was in one :)


Wanna waste almost 9 minutes being girly???
might I suggest...

dear giggly girly fluttery stomach...this is so pathetic!!!

Oh if only I was in movies!!!!

Now to calm down your pitter-pattering heart....lets remind you of reality :)

All By My Onesie!

SAVVY??

Today is one of those on my own days.
This morning I man-ed a station of a 5K...my only company being the runners who went past quickly.
And my roommate's been gone most of the day, and I don't have any firm plans with anyone this evening.

So my Cardinals kept me company earlier....and now William Elizabeth and Jack have taken over.
Add to that a cozy blanket...a paper that I just have to crunch out...and an AWESOME thunderstorm?
Not a terrible afternoon for sure!

So what is on tap for tonight?

Maybe a trip to the mall.  Maybe a nice face mask. I haven't deep conditioned my hair in a while.
And my feet need some serious TLC.

Add to that a nice bowl of popcorn, a redbox movie, a chocolate milkshake and an early bedtime ....I'm gonna be one happy girl tonight!!!


What are you up to this weekend?  Is it a chill one for you too??

Favorite Things Friday

I apologize for my pity party post yesterday.
There was a lot of negative swamping going on...and I just needed to write to be more resilient.


(WAHOO FOR DR NELSON'S 490 CLASS!!!!!  hehe  SHOUT OUT!)


But today is a bit more upbeat :)

Countdown excitement......
14 days
63 days
89 days


It is finally supposed to rain!  My car is so dirty from my little trip on a dusty country road last weekend..and seriously needs some washing!!!!


Only 3 tests and 3 papers stand in the way of the end of this semester.  And none of them are that hard or that concerning.  Just gotta PUNCH EM OUT!!!!!


I get to see 3 of my favorite people tomorrow morning! 
You ever seen the movie Inception?  You know how they have a totem to keep them focused and present.
Well my family is my totem.  And I need to realign and refocus a bit.  So happy they are coming up...even if it is just for a few minutes!


I have NO classes and NO clinicals next week.  Its all about free time!!!! This semester other than those tests and papers is DONE!!!!!


The town hall meeting I participated in last night went VERY well :)


song for today???

enjoy!

Sometimes........................

If you haven't noticed, I've been a little more absent on my blog lately.  Its because I don't like being silly and girly or super stressed or bummed on my blog.
I know its kinda backwards...but I don't want to have a whiny blog.
Ranting about bad things is different then being bummed about them.

Ranting=anger=emotion that is accessible
Bummed=sad=difficult emotion to access

So now I will do my best to say what I want to say...and not be moody.  Or whiny.  Or too pathetic.  Or too overly sentimental/romantic/dreamy/unrealistic

READY OK!

Life is rough sometimes.

Sometimes you have so much going on things fall through the cracks.
Sometimes you are scared out of your mind.
Sometimes you can't get yourself motivated
Sometimes people are mean
Sometimes people let you down

Sometimes your sink leaks, your apartment is too hot...or too cold and you have what appears to be an infestation of silver fish
Sometimes the check engine light comes on
Sometimes you break your favorite headband and 30 seconds later your favorite clip

Sometimes you get a paper cut that hurts for days
Sometimes you spend hours on a project that won't even be graded
Sometimes you hate your job
Sometimes you are tired...and you have a headache
Sometimes you are feel alone...completely on your own.


Sometimes it seems like nothing can go right.
That you can't catch a break.

Here's the part where I would normally say...and then it gets better.
But sometimes it doesn't.

And then you feel bad cause you should have more faith.
And if you just believed it would all go away.


 I feel like this is kind of a pity party.
But please don't take it as that.

Please take it as an outstretched hand.
You feel like this too sometimes....its ok.
We'll pull through...someday

Cause maybe I don't have enough faith to make the fear and heartache go away.
But I do have enough to know that it will go away eventually.


And until then I will call my mom, curl up under my covers, listen to my book on tape, and fall asleep...to hopefully wake up to a day not as bad as the past several weeks

cause it prolly wont...
enjoy this honest...but not melancholy song :)  And feel better bloggy friends!

dear boys part 17

dear enigma
You are "gone"  Congrats.  Here's hoping I find someone just like you.
love
stephanie

dear misters know it all
You don't know.  None of you do.  Until you walk the "perky nurse walk" because you have to get somewhere quickly but not cause alarm. Until you stay up all night studying or writing care plans.  Until you have come home crying because your patient touched your heart.  Until you come home crying because you are so tired and so hungry.  You will never understand...
love
a nurse

dear boy in my dream
In any other situation it wouldn't be that weird...or that unwelcomed.  Ok so maybe it would still be a little weird.  We were taking engagement pictures in this dream...and that would be weird with anyone.  But maybe not nearly as unwelcomed as it is due to the current situation.
love
slightly embarrassed

dear band member
I never have had this kind of experience yet.  It's kind of no fun.
I hope you come back.
love
a prayerful girl

dear call me maybe
hmmm.  wanna meet in the middle???
love
Carly's friend

dear sharks
Go swim somewhere else will you???  SERIOUSLY!!!
I think we need to have a "fish are friends not food discussion"
love
a scared little fishy


Link up to my lovely Elise-y!!! :D

Can't Stop Laughing!

Ok so seriously this song came up on my Pandora "Musicals" station

"Well, somebody has to arrange the matches, 
Young people can't decide these things themselves."


I could not stop laughing for like 5 minutes!!!!

(do you think they are right????  hehe)


Then guess what came on???

BEST!!!


I think I watched this movie everyday for like a year growing up!!!!


GOTTA LOVE IT!!!!

Oh my head!!

My head is so full of so many thoughts today that I can't even begin to start writing them all down.  My head is so full it literally hurts!

So I'm just going to talk..until it stops hurting????

Its been 5 years since we lost an amazing spirit from this earth.  My heart and mind are with his family.  His death was so tragic and I hope that they have found some peace these past several years.  

Again...I don't know exactly what to say.  But I do know this.  He is with his loving Father.  He is safe, he is at peace.  He is not in pain.  He is being taken care of...better than we could here.

One year ago today, I was in a park in Provo...beginning to understand what leaving that life, the world I had made for myself, really meant.  

Thinking back to that time, I had know idea what was about to happen.  Where my life was going to take me.  Not much different from now!  Who knows where I will end up.  Who knows what will happen.

And maybe that is what I am feeling.  The unexpected and the unknown are so frightening.  Life and love can be ripped from us at any time.  We have no way of knowing.

And its frightening.  I know there is a plan.  I know that I will be guided and led in exactly the direction I am to go.  There is a Plan...He knows it.  If only He would share!  Let me in on the secret please!!!???

My Current Theme Song

BEST SONG EVER

Hold onto your hats my friends....he is about to look into your soul...(thank you to the girls on the radio who coined this phrase!!!)

Watch out gents....Every hurricane gets its name from a girl like me....
I'm the cat 5 kind...

so watch out.

consider this your storm warning!

Feeling a Bit Nostalgic

One year ago I was here....

I was trying to not get blown away

I was saying goodbye to these AMAZING wardies!

And goodbye to these awesome fun kids from my major

I was scared about going to a brand new school...moving to a brand new place.
I was bittersweet about leaving a guy I was falling for.

I was stepping out on my own to follow my dream.

And now I'm here....98 days from getting that dream
Still have no idea where I will go.

I have learned so much.  I have grown so much.

I have learned a lot about myself...both what I am good at and what I am not so good at.
I've gotten really good at relying on the Lord...and learning to deal with things myself too.
I have learned to be a little extroverted..weird news to everyone I'm sure


I still have lots to learn.  There is so much about being a nurse that I don't know.
So much about myself that I have NO CLUE about!
I still want to do lots of learning and growing in the Gospel.
I still have tons to learn about people...and how to treat and act around them.

But I'm learning.  And I have time
This time last year...this was not the "place" I expected to be.
Wonder where we will be this time NEXT year!

Can't wait to see :)



PS.... CONGRATS TO ALL THE COUGARS OF 2012!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Welcome to the real world! hahaha
And take it from me...if you can go back for more school...DO IT!!!
Avoid being a grownup as long as you can hahaha  (within reason...don go craazy hehe)

Pinterest Rant

Maybe its a little cowardly...but I'd rather have pinterest say what I am feeling tonight rather than myself

Source: livelifehappy.com via Stephanie on Pinterest

Source: tumblr.com via Stephanie on Pinterest

Source: pinterest.com via Lesley on Pinterest

Cause courage doesn't always roar


When people act stupid or treat you wrong...
You leaving proves you are stronger than them.
Never stoop to that level.


It only took me 23 years to learn that...but at least I have now.


also ps...99 days until I can bail :)

Contention....

Bring Them In

My blog has taken a serious Mormon turn lately.
I feel like I should say sorry...but I'm not at all apologetic!

I love to share what I believe.

Have you ever had something really great that you can't help but share?
A great slice of chocolate cake.
A funny joke, crazy fact, or cool story.

You share it.

What I have has given me great peace and comfort in my life.
I can't help but share it...

Elder Jeffrey R Holland once said:

"This morning President Hinckley movingly reminded us that this is the 150th anniversary of those handcart companies that, as general conference was convening in October of 1856 here in the Salt Lake Valley, were staggering through the last freezing miles of Nebraska and were soon to be stranded in the impassable snows of the high country of Wyoming. He quoted to us President Brigham Young’s inspiring general conference message to the Saints, simply “go and bring in those people now on the plains.”
As surely as the rescue of those in need was the general conference theme of October 1856, so too is it the theme of this conference and last conference and the one to come next spring. It may not be blizzards and frozen-earth burials that we face this conference, but the needy are still out there—the poor and the weary, the discouraged and downhearted, those “[falling] away into [the] forbidden paths” we mentioned earlier, and multitudes who are “kept from the truth because they know not where to find it.” They are all out there with feeble knees, hands that hang down, and bad weather setting in. They can be rescued only by those who have more and know more and can help more. And don’t worry about asking, “Where are they?” They are everywhere, on our right hand and on our left, in our neighborhoods and in the workplace, in every community and county and nation of this world. Take your team and wagon; load it with your love, your testimony, and a spiritual sack of flour; then drive in any direction. The Lord will lead you to those in need if you will but embrace the gospel of Jesus Christ that has been taught in this conference. Open your heart and your hand to those trapped in the twenty-first century’s equivalent of Martin’s Cove and Devil’s Gate. In doing so we honor the Master’s repeated plea on behalf of lost sheep and lost coins and lost souls."





and so I will do my best to bring them in....

"Our Story Chapter 1"

I think I'm a glutton for punishment......

I found a CD recently.

A CD from Chicken Boy

I hid it and a bunch of pictures months ago.
Cause I didn't want to see it.
Then I found it.
And I started listening to it.
 Its a good cd...but here is the thing..its kind of a downer.

Every song has meaning.  Every song has a story.
Each song makes me think of why he put it on the CD

Its a lot of memories.  All of them good.
But kinda depressing....pathetic I know

Even though now looking back, I'm glad there wasn't an
"Our Story Chapter 2"
I'm kinda bummed I can never get past chapter 1.
(actually rewind..and revise...
usually I can hardly get past the foreword/preface/opening the dang book!)

I just hope I can get to chapter 2 someday.

I really enjoyed our time together and I miss that.
Not with him (good grief NO!)...just with anyone.
(and by anyone I mean anyone great and awesome haha)

Who knows what is in store for me...but hopefully it will be great.  And I will find greatness again.



ps...not all the songs just some

Hashtag

Alright so seriously not a huge Twitter fan....I already tell everyone too much of my business on my blog...they don't need to hear what I have to say every minute of every day.  Also when I get on my computer I check 2 emails, my facebook, my blog stats, the blogs I follow AND my pinterest.  Seriously ladies and gents...that is just too much!  I can't get into Twitter too!

Plus....I am not a bird.  I do not "tweet"

But yesterday many things about twitter were explained to me..and I feel like the only way to describe the best parts of this weekend (other than the temple and call me maybe).

so..... here we go...best tweets of the day!

oh my gosh they are videoing us!  Well lets give them a show!  We are gonna go viral! #dancinginthecartopartyrockin

we were just talking about how fun summer flings are in the car #troublewithcommas

here is a pie on a silver platter, would you like to smash it into my face? #settingmyselfupforjokes

what is going on right now?  I don't know but its entertaining #awkwardmomentsinthecar

why is your bugle swimming #waytoplaywithyourfood

there are vultures around...  I was thinking more like sharks  #creepyguyshovering

i've got lots of Latin lovin on my phone #tmimyfriendtmi

LOVE #stephanie'smanvoice

that makes me want to be violent #precious

hmmmm forget the temple.  lets go there! #dreamchurch

I love to be stalked #imeantblogfollowing!

I turn into a three year old when I'm hungry #hungerregression

NO NO NO NO NO don't push me #scaryswingsetmoment

so apparently I am the north pole to their south poles #magneticpersonality???