Nightmares....and Freaking Out

Dreams are weird.  I've said this before.
This afternoon I took a nap.

And instead of waking up refreshed as I should have or groggy as I usually do....I woke up disturbed...and with a headache.
Not cool!

It was a very disturbing dream.  A nightmare of sorts.  Not the type of dream that leaves you scared.  But the kind that leaves you upset-twisty insides upset.

The beginning of the dream was a version (nothing like the real thing in situation) of a terrible interaction that happened 5ish years ago.  Then suddenly I was in a different season (summer to Christmas) at a fancy party with people from the ward (and Tim McGraw what the what!), in a place I don't recognize and was making choices that were not advisable.

In the dream I was upset because of the interaction and then stressed about the poor choices.  And I woke up feeling the same-upset and stressed.  Plus afternoon nap groggy-ness.
Basically it was no bueno.


I've written before about dreams  and my theories on why dreams are sometimes so weird.
But there is one that I didn't touch on.  One that this dream causes me to worry about.

Some people say dreams are the manifestations of our true desires.  Our true selves.
The end of this dream I made some really bad decisions.  Not just ill-advised-but bad bad choices.

Does this mean that I deep down want to make these choices?  Is this my true self??

So I really want to know what you all think.  Let me know!  Cause I am freaking out just a little........


Be Happy...Be Healthy